Growing Up

So I'm in an elite group of friends that I have had for over 15 years.  Kind of like a club, lodge, social organization.  They have come to be very important to me over my lifetime. The older I get the more less important they are becoming.  I would never "denounce" the organization, but I think I'm getting tired.  I no longer want to attend our yearly "sister" meetings.
Have I finally outgrown things that seemed so important in the past. Actually, I think I harbor a bit of resentment for feeling like no one reached out to me at a particularly difficult time. Mathematically, someone should have been able to share my feelings or circumstances. I used to look forward to updates. Now I'm non-existent on social networking sites.  I don't even send holiday greetings in texts. I think my worst fears are happening....I'm becoming a grown-up.
I don't have any inclination to share any theoretic news. No wedding, baby, holiday, news or photo updates.  Not that I've gotten married or had a baby. So maybe just the holiday and everyday news.
It may sound incidental but an organization that I've pledged allegiance to, that family members have followed in my footsteps and joined, that I once led an local chapter, and of which I have more than a couple tattoos:) I still love it.  Well maybe I'm just putting it in perspective and I like it, and I have love for the people in it. I just don't want to be around them as much. I really am an only child and don't actually have other "sisters"...

Does this work

saving my sanity

I need these words to save my sanity.

Everyday it seems to slip away more and more.

Constantly in search of peace of mind.

Can it be as easy as to forget,

to embrace indifference,

to go deaf,

maybe blind, 

or 

to just write...